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Thursday, January 25, 2007 12:36 AM

oUcH !!! mY hEAd iS oN "fire" !!! [ fEvEr ] AHHHHH........sobX 辛苦 woRx >.<
although i was sick.....i still sucessfully made my way to school as usual.....lessons were as usual too.......onli the lesson after english 4 from our class including me kind of skipped half of it cause we were not sure of the time....plus v3nky cant find the class key......so after the last lesson [ english ] hadhi, kenny, yu cong, v3nky and me slacked in class until 1.55pm then we slowly walked down for class....hEhE =P eh.....is 5 right ? o.O oopS
anyway we manage to go into class without getting scolded......phew
after the lesson finished....i made my way home as fast as possible.....went to bathe after which i dived right into my bed......yAwnZ >.< i know i am bery very tired......but even if i ly down in the dark close my eyes.....i wont fall asleep......i juz cant.......mayb u can say i think of her too much.......watever it is....i am tired and i want to sleep.......every night i juz ly on my bed looking up on the ceiling......and yesterday night.......i became so bored that i SMS some of my frens......stupidly thinking they were still awake.......ask who can chat wif me......and as my stupid thought was true no one was awake at that time..........continued to look at the ceiling all the way until 6am in the morning.......which i standed up to go prepared to go to school..........
Oh ya and today i was quite close to getting hit by a bottle right in the face >.<>.< hAiZ how much more can i be more useless......sobX
when will i to be happy again......to run wif u in the rain again............mayb something so nice may never occur again.......to me.........i alone and sad =(
i guess people around me dun even know i am sick cause i still can jump around like a stupid monkey.......and probably no one knows i am sad.......cause i still can laugh and joke around......no one knows its fake......=( but least at someone's happy today......according to the blog......glad to know that =) how i hope i could be as happy too.........but i cant force mself too be happy......it dosent feel good......its like u are cheating urself.......juz like me forcing myself to be happy....i know i am actually cheating myself ='( but i cant do anithing about it.......hAiZ i dun wan to show the whole world that i am sad......and therefore i am now cheating myself by telling myself i am happy.......which actually means the OPPOSITE........hAiZ =( i wish for myself to get well soon.......sobX ='(

我爱你! 我爱你! 我爱你! 我爱你! 我爱你!我爱你!
i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u !

i hOpE i cAn mAke u sMiLe aGaiN ='(

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