iTs bEeN qUitE sOmE dAyS i hAvE bEeN dReaMing aBout U........
these few days not in a good mood at all.....i have been dreaming of u lately.....i guess probably because i miss u.......i think back alot of the things that have happened.......the days i enjoy spending with u....the days where u help me pick myself up and the days i made u smile......i hope it can all happen again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again.......u are the onli one i trust now......but sometimes i juz feel that i want to be left alone in a world where nothing happens and no one around me....BUT ! i dun like the feeling of being alone too !!! i am so confuSed....hAiZ.....sometimes i really wonder wat are real friends.....are they people that walk away when u have a problem or are they people u trust whom u tell them ur secret.....and they actually tell it to everyone.....or are they people who juz come looking for u when they need ur help or juz leave the person out when they go out.....juz cause u dun like the person ??? is that wat really mean by the word friends ??? someone once told me that i get easily bullied.....yea now i agree with it totally......cause i dun usually get angry with things....i juz keep quiet pretending that nothing has happened and act like a little kid that doesnt know anithing that has juz happened......but actually i am suffering deep inside.....no one knows cause i am juz keeping it inside and quietly suffering......and when something goes wrong....i am always the one at fault, sometimes its really my fault i admit.....but sometimes even i didnt cause the trouble the blame is always to me.....and i juz have to accept the punishment cause everyone is against me......proving that everyone aims me when there is trouble.....now i understand why u said i am easily bullied cause i am usually the target for everything that goes wrong.....very seldom i dun get the blame......u said that me remaining as a kid would be better.....isit because........hAiZ =(
its so unfair....i always keep my troubles within myself......it definately is not a good feeling.....its been some days that i have dreaming about u, its all the same dream....i dunno why....hAiZ =( i am very confused....i dun know wat to do.....hAiZ ='( some people have countless friends...while i mine is u can count so easily cause its onli like 1 ~ 10......easy right ? hAiZ....it wasnt like this a few years before.....why ??? have i become someone that everyone is scared to become friends with ??? or am i so hate-able that everyone dun want to be friends with me.....mayb being alone would be so much better as there would be no one that can blame me for anithing or hurt me......BUT ! i dun like the feeling to be alone......i juz hope i can have friends who dun usually hurt me.....but i know there is nothing of such would happen.....cause u dun always get wat u want so easily.....today it was raining after we were released from school after remmedial i juz walked in the rain.......and i was thinking of that day when it was raining......i can never forget wat happened.......and everytime i see the rain i will think of u......recently i have been playing basketball and scocer to try and forget my misery......but i cant.....hAiZ......everything have changed greatly for me this year....so much has changed.....hAiZ ='( i juz want to be a kid and live a carefree life watching cartoon everyday without hainto worry about anythin !!! but too bad i cant turn back time ='(
wHo wAnt gO waTcH mOviE wiTh mE ??? =P
waiting..........waiting...........waiting............waiting and waiting for a reply, i wonder when i will get a reply or is it that i wont ever gwt one ??? hAiZ.......=( i am so bored nowadays, i got nothing better to do..............today was a holiday, i stayed at home and did nothing at all, didnt eat or drink or simply juz got anithing to do until afternoon at about 4pm+ then went to alvin house for fun.........after that went to eat dinner with my mum and sis..........which i went home after that and again i did nothing till 1am+ then i slept..........WHO WANT WATCH MOVIE WITH ME ??? hAIZ......='(
LonELy dAyZ aHeAd..........hAiZ =(
haiZ.........got back my report book today, wasn't good at all no strenght no nothing......hAiZ......someone so good alreadi still say his results very bad...........if his kind of result is lousy........wat is mine ??? hAiZ.........anyway i am going to promote to sec 4........quite a relief =P but then come to think of next year........how lonely i will get........hAiZ =( i really dun know wat'll happen, mayb the form teacher will put me one corner.......will it ??? hAiZ.......recently i have been quite quiet in class, i dun know wat to talk about.........in fact its cause i am not as clever as them, all different topics........so juz very lonely while the others enjoy time with their friends during the few free periods these few days, while i juz sit there at my place and do nothing.......cause i am alone. i dun have much friends now, i have its juz that they have theirs too and so i am mostly being left alone, this yea alreadi like that, next year i dun dare to think.........hAiZ =( i have been thinking alot of bad things these few days, i dun feel as happy when i was still sec 1 and 2 being a little kid...........i look happy for awhile and then i look sad, its like i have lost control of my feelings...........i dunno wat to do, i am totally lost............anyone can guide me out of the maze i am in.........i feel so alone, i am scared i am juz waiting and waiting and waiting for something or someone to bring me out where i'LL lead a happy life..............when will it come ??? or mayb it will never come ??? i juz want to say i may look happy on the outside, actually the truth is i am not cause i dun want u to worry........its so painful to do so cause i have always shared my problems with u but u are alreadi under so much pressure i dun want to add on ur burden............... i want to share my troubles with someone, but who will want to listen other then...........hAiZ ='(
hahaZ.....=P U aRe thE oNe whOm hAd gAvE mE sO mAny fiRsT tiMeS =P thAnX........=] bUt i waNt moRe.......hahAz =P
wOoTs i feel my blog coming alive lo, so happy =P hahaZ ^^ hmmm, today during Ms Kang class very havoc cause the bear very noisy talk alot of rubbish, lol the plus the yee da, waaa OMG lo so stupid !!! hahaZ ^^ CAUSE SHE NEVER COME !!! i hAppy cause can rest awhile but the bear........gRrRrRr k lo luckily i not so very sick that kind, so still can take it ^^ if not..........bear........LOL i wont do anithing to him lah, my fists onli at his face onli.......nothing one......hahaZ =P then after school, go take LRT with aLiEn, also dunno why she want take LRT, got spaceship dun want then go take LRT -_-"........hahaZ =P recently quite happy nothing to make me feel sad about i hope this kind of feeling never go away and i will feel happy forever ^^....hAiZ i dun think it will. nvm lah i mustn't think badly ^^ so i preseume i am suppose to say my happiness will stay with me forever ??? like that ar ??? correct ma ??? =P after the LRT finally reach LOT 1 went home, changed and went down play basketball with DL,nick,kenny,yu cong,bear and alvin play scocer and backetball, all funny funny de, like anyhow play......hahaZ =X then play halfway rain when we were playing basketball, went to shelter but then all of us all wet, juz as wet as that time after the sports heats where we ran under the rain =P i guess everyone had a great time ^^ after that went home bath le, went to sleep awhile...........zZZZ after which switch on com listen to song and wait for time to pass......lol then at 10+ then i write blog cause i miss it =P hahaZ o.O then i slept at 11.45pm =P later sleep in class tomolo =P hahaZ
LEtS fOrGeT aBoUt tHe sAd tHinGs aNd bE hApPy =P hehe ^^
phew.........finally i get some rest....=P after exams and ppl's birthday all that.........finally on a saturday i get some rest so tired, haven been sleeping well these few days cause busy with some drawing wor =P ok lah not really alot but then next year sure u will see more =P CAUSE I GOT ONE WHOLE YEAR TO DRAW !!! hahaZ =P 19 october was PL and cRabBy's birthday.......Happy Birthday =P i know its late i said this but i did say it on actual day ^^ then came 20 october aLiEn and nUe Er's birthday ^^ hahaZ, i know i say late in my blog and i sent SMS also late =P who ask my clock spoil de wor, sorry lor so aLiEn u dun complain.......erm wait........aLieN timE diffeRent by one minutes !!! Oh no wonder u say i late by one minute !!!! hahahahahahahaZ =P i know i am being lame here, but as long as i stay like that is good cause like that i am happy ^^ but one thing i dun like its my results, did quite badly.......hAiZ and i even cried in class =P so malu.....alamak =P next time i better work hard, i must do it for the stupid yee da see, everyday onli bully me one say i stupid and of course for my own good and blah blah blah......hahaZ i thinking enough of "lame-ing" hahaZ =P i am glad that everything is over for awhile, finally some rest then next year, o.O better not write anymore late i talk nonsense again =P anyway also nothing else to write =P hahahahahahZ. k lah i know it lame, i better stop cause i gOt NOTHING TO WRITE ALREADI !!! hahaZ =P
hAiZ.......mY biRtHdAy wiSh iS to.......nvm forget it its useless to say anyway.......toDay iS the last days of exam.......hmmm actually not really exam =P its juz oral........and i dun think i am going to do well lo.....siAnZ after oral have to go to staff room check mother tongue marks lo........ok lahi did rather well =P but still not as good as wat i wanted........but then wat could i ask more........i have passed........i really hope i could help those who have failed.......and i dun think i can...........SORRY =(
after that i went home lo.......play pangya awhile =P then at 10.45am GhostZ in msn ask me want go his house help him crack warcraft.........and he want me reach by 11am........waaaa i haven take a shower yet somemore......-_-" okok so i didnt care and i slowly took my time........and the moment i lock my house door........it was 10.56am..........o.O so guess wat i do ??? hEhE i started running to my house's nearest MRT station...........
sAd mE =(
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