oUcH !!! mY hEAd iS oN "fire" !!! [ fEvEr ] AHHHHH........sobX 辛苦 woRx >.<
although i was sick.....i still sucessfully made my way to school as usual.....lessons were as usual too.......onli the lesson after english 4 from our class including me kind of skipped half of it cause we were not sure of the time....plus v3nky cant find the class key......so after the last lesson [ english ] hadhi, kenny, yu cong, v3nky and me slacked in class until 1.55pm then we slowly walked down for class....hEhE =P eh.....is 5 right ? o.O oopS
anyway we manage to go into class without getting scolded......phew
after the lesson finished....i made my way home as fast as possible.....went to bathe after which i dived right into my bed......yAwnZ >.< i know i am bery very tired......but even if i ly down in the dark close my eyes.....i wont fall asleep......i juz cant.......mayb u can say i think of her too much.......watever it is....i am tired and i want to sleep.......every night i juz ly on my bed looking up on the ceiling......and yesterday night.......i became so bored that i SMS some of my frens......stupidly thinking they were still awake.......ask who can chat wif me......and as my stupid thought was true no one was awake at that time..........continued to look at the ceiling all the way until 6am in the morning.......which i standed up to go prepared to go to school..........
Oh ya and today i was quite close to getting hit by a bottle right in the face >.<>.< hAiZ how much more can i be more useless......sobX
when will i to be happy again......to run wif u in the rain again............mayb something so nice may never occur again.......to me.........i alone and sad =(
i guess people around me dun even know i am sick cause i still can jump around like a stupid monkey.......and probably no one knows i am sad.......cause i still can laugh and joke around......no one knows its fake......=( but least at someone's happy today......according to the blog......glad to know that =) how i hope i could be as happy too.........but i cant force mself too be happy......it dosent feel good......its like u are cheating urself.......juz like me forcing myself to be happy....i know i am actually cheating myself ='( but i cant do anithing about it.......hAiZ i dun wan to show the whole world that i am sad......and therefore i am now cheating myself by telling myself i am happy.......which actually means the OPPOSITE........hAiZ =( i wish for myself to get well soon.......sobX ='(
我爱你! 我爱你! 我爱你! 我爱你! 我爱你!我爱你!
i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u ! i LurVe u !
hAiZ......i cant sleep.....i am like throwing all my emotions into this blog......i want to talk to u....cause onli u know me well.......but i know its not the right time to do so....nvm...hAiZ....so i think i am juz going to shut up and write all my feeling to this blog since i cant talk to u.....sobX
okaE lets start from where ?
HaiO bLoGgiE.......lol stupid me......like as if the com will reply me.......
computer: Hi....
WAAAAAAAAAAAAA the com reply wor !!! wOO !! com.....u shut up and listen k ? =X
computer: okok....i afk [ away from keyboard ] *the screen moving away*
.....o.O how i check if i type got error !!! AHHHH come back computer.......dun afk juz sit here and shut up can alreadi ^^ thank you...hEhE =P
hAiZ.......now no mood write alreadi.......really need to rest >.< BUT !!! i dun think i can sleep >.< AHHHHHHH....hAiZ juz ly down on the bed hope i can fall asleep lo =(
wALkiNg hOmE aLonE oN tHe dArK aNd qUiEt rOaD.......soBx i dUn LiKe bEinG aLonE, bUt i ThinK i hAvE tO woRx >.< sobx ="(">
*cOuGh* *cOuGh* this blog filled with dust.....i wan faint alreadi, i dun even remember when i last updated this blog......two months ? hAiZ.....did not write cause everytime i login to this blog account......those sAd memories come back to me.....now i am alreadi sad enough......but i decided to write this post cause i cant sleep juz afraid that the unrealistic dream would visit me.....its like one whole week i cant sleep properly.......one day onli slept like for 1~2 hours onli......i tried to be happy in school when i am wif my friends.....but its no use.....somehow some people still noticed it.....why ? i too fake ? hAiZ.....i dunno how they know, i am so confused......hAiZ =(
Today it was school as per normal......i did my english draft, but i left it at home.....so i rushed out one piece which i told Ms Ong i did it wrongly.....so she ask me write another one.....but actually no need =P so could quickly go home.......and prepared to go airport ^^ It was the first time i am going to the airport......stupid right.....15 years of my life and this is the first time i going there, but its the truth cause the furthest place i ever go to was Kualar Lumpur ( spelling wrong ? >.<)
and thats by car......so its truth i never go airport before.....must believe okaE !! =P at first was quite excited [ so stupid =P ] took about 1+ hours juz to reach there, in the MRT ( train ) it was quite crowded.....so i switch on my MP3 to the max listening to the song on my blog [ because of you ] keep repeating the same song over and over again......when we reached....i like idiot jump jump around say everything nice.....like idiot like that.....actually cannot blame me la.....first time go wat like i come from the other planet like that.....hehe =P everything was fine until they went to the so called "KFC" there to eat......i didnt eat, cause i no mood to eat......then waited there for about 1 hour plus then suddenly Athar call me......say he reach alreadi.......i told him where we were at.........he say cannot hear wat i say.......so i went to look for him.....brought him up to the "KFC"..........which i sat at one corner and daze into space cause i am juz too bored......at 9 i think went down then see all the teachers and all......than all talk here talk there......then me stand dere do nothing.......at around 10.15pm all of them had to go dunno where, then BYE BYE lo......so go home........dunno why everytime i say Bye to people, whoever they are......its very difficult to not to cry, i dunno why.....i got those weird feelings that i cannot describe.......hAiZ i think i those abnormal people......then at about 10.30 reached the MRT station....about to go home......somehow i suddenly felt i was like extra......anyway everyone also have something to do........i wan to talk to someone also cannot......so i juz strayed away from them......plus i wasn't feeling well too....fever ? when it reached CCK all of us alighted......then went to the bus interchange.....not used to seeing the bus-interchange so quiet..........after took the 302 bus to yew tee, brought some drinks and went home again listening to my MP3 full blast same song.....someday mayb my ears would burst and bleed and bleed until i die.......
i think i was like the quietest for the whole while especially when we were all going back......and i think cried in the train ??? cause....hAiZ nvm.......
Oh ya !!! i learnt something new today....THE BUNNY BYE BYE ^^ lol =P
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