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Thursday, October 26, 2006 10:50 PM

LonELy dAyZ aHeAd..........hAiZ =(
haiZ.........got back my report book today, wasn't good at all no strenght no nothing......hAiZ......someone so good alreadi still say his results very bad...........if his kind of result is lousy........wat is mine ??? hAiZ.........anyway i am going to promote to sec 4........quite a relief =P but then come to think of next year........how lonely i will get........hAiZ =( i really dun know wat'll happen, mayb the form teacher will put me one corner.......will it ??? hAiZ.......recently i have been quite quiet in class, i dun know wat to talk about.........in fact its cause i am not as clever as them, all different topics........so juz very lonely while the others enjoy time with their friends during the few free periods these few days, while i juz sit there at my place and do nothing.......cause i am alone. i dun have much friends now, i have its juz that they have theirs too and so i am mostly being left alone, this yea alreadi like that, next year i dun dare to think.........hAiZ =( i have been thinking alot of bad things these few days, i dun feel as happy when i was still sec 1 and 2 being a little kid...........i look happy for awhile and then i look sad, its like i have lost control of my feelings...........i dunno wat to do, i am totally lost............anyone can guide me out of the maze i am in.........i feel so alone, i am scared i am juz waiting and waiting and waiting for something or someone to bring me out where i'LL lead a happy life..............when will it come ??? or mayb it will never come ??? i juz want to say i may look happy on the outside, actually the truth is i am not cause i dun want u to worry........its so painful to do so cause i have always shared my problems with u but u are alreadi under so much pressure i dun want to add on ur burden............... i want to share my troubles with someone, but who will want to listen other then...........hAiZ ='(

i hOpE i cAn mAke u sMiLe aGaiN ='(

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