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Saturday, July 08, 2006 10:33 PM

there is something i must do..........first thing i thought of to do is to say SORRY to you.............hAiZ :"( and till now i still dun know your reply........hAiZ :"( i feel lost and i dun know where i want to go next...........maybe i wants to juz stay where i am and wait...........cause i know if i continue i would go deeper and be lost forever..........hAiZ :"( today.........morning go school for robotics...........like last week play games over there not doing wat i am supposed to do............but today i did abit of building............then they play robo scocer.........quite stupid but its fun and i can see everyone was having fun............laughing at the stupidity of the robot playing scocer............me sitting alone there watching no expressions............juz looking :"( no mood to laugh but tried to smile.............hAiZ :"( but cannot.............SORRY :"( then after that can go home alreadi went out saw "son" in school then he say he doing his DnT then at first want to go see see............then nvm lah dun disturb him..........then went home alone again...........juz thinking.......and reflecting on myself............hAiZ :"( my friends...........are they really wat i should call them ??? i dun know............i am so confused now...................after that went home do maths homework do and do and do then i didnt realized that it was alreadi 6pm.........waaaaaa time passes so fast lo........then my parents went out again......ask me follow then today they ask me why i walk so slow and i think they noticed i was sort of crying............and they asked..............but then i tell them nothing..........i know they didnt believe me..........but they walk away...........did i do the correct or the wrong thing ??? someone tell me.............plz !!! :"( after that went home switch on com............then tried to enjoy playing pangya..........hAiZ :"( when can i laugh again..............and do you accept my apology ??? plz tell me..............hAiZ :"( SORY...........................hAiZ :"(

i hOpE i cAn mAke u sMiLe aGaiN ='(

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