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Friday, July 07, 2006 11:01 PM

Today................still cant forget wat i was trying to for get yesterday..............but felt worse.............during E-maths lesson today i was like going to cry.............then i did............onli thing is that i think no one saw it...............thats all i can say lo...........then after school.............stayed in school awhile cause mabye "son" and "nUe Er" coming my house............according to "son" they coming...........then i very happy..............but then they never, i also dun know wat happened............then i was sad...........after he told me he want go home..........so not going le................hAiZ :"( you make me put my hopes so high then pull it down...........why............hAiZ :"( before "son" said he not coming i accompanied him to buy DnT stuff...........then he said he want to go home............so i went to Macdonalds stay there i did nothing..............at first i played with camera phone then make till Hadhi angry then not fun anymore.............then change target to nUe Er.............until i play sian le...........i sit the "daydream" and almost cried and i think you saw it ??? !!! GOT ??? hAiZ :"( then after that saw that nUe Er not in Mac thought she went to erm..............4th floor i guess.........went up and at the bend i saw you !!! i was right you was at the 4th level..............then i think i scared you................ SORRY..............Y_Y hAiZ :"( then after that went to play badminton..............and i was totally shocked that i still could play................but not as good as last time..............Hmm but i dun think i even play well last time..............nvm lah, the point is after not playing badminton for so long i still can play.............i tried to smile............yea i did smile at sometimes ever some things..............hAiZ :"( SORRY..............hAiZ :"( again........... then after playing badminton all of your tired so ur went home me too.............but different mood.............on the bus home i tried not to cry.............i didnt but i had very teary eyes.............its like i blink my eyes it will start rolling down..................but wiped it..............hAiZ :"( come back first thing happened is when i went online and over 20 contacts scold me all at the same time...........say i very irritaiting..............AM I ??? i didnt know so i, decided to ask you..............so i SMS'ed but you didnt reply..............hAiZ :"( then i wait and wait till midnight you also haven reply..............hAiZ :"( hAiZ..............i not in good mood i went to try and sleep............
I MUST TRY TO SLEEP !!! although i am sleepy i propably cant sleep...............hAiZ :"( when will this ends ???
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should i upload pictures that i took when i was playing with the camera phone ???

i hOpE i cAn mAke u sMiLe aGaiN ='(

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