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Today whole day nothing that had made me cry or even feel sad...........today whole day i have been smiling and do wat a happy person will do...........sure hope everyday would be the same...........but i know it wont............hAiZ :"( today juz wake up in the morning as usual then go to school lo then after school stayed back see show subaa they all playing with water making themselves wet............i wanted to join cause it looks fun but then i know i am not welcomed.................so i juz sat there watch lo...........after that they have to go CCA so no more show but then suddenly Han Sheng, Kheng Chai, Hadhi Bear and me were like playing catching then i always like so blur dun know who is catcher..........so i juz blur blur stand there always then suddenly i would become the cather...............hahaZ i blur lo............anyway i had fun............. HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! then after that Kheng Chai go home alreadi we still srayed in class till nUe Er go home..........then we also go off together lo...........then Han Sheng and i accompanied her home lo...........then we were outside her house chatting with her lo i didnt talk much cause they talking about "something" i dun know about so i juz kept quiet and watch them talk lo............then at 5.30pm Han Sheng and i seperated and went different ways cause obviously we stay different place !!!!! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! then go home guess wat i do ??? i switch on the com. then like yesterday play and chat all the way till 12am plus..........but then tomolo still have to go to school for the robotics thingy..............i wonder if i can wake up and reach school in time ???
Today wake up as usual then prepared to go school onli today i went out of my house late so i thought sure late liao.........but i also dun know why i juz made in on time for assembly..........i guess its all luck..........hope i will be lucky for the rest of the day...........hehe after assembly go back to class then have boring lessons all the way till afternoon...........then at 2.45pm finally school ended then stay in class talk about rubbish cause got the Kheng Chai there ma.........then after that went to teck whye there but DnT stuff for the finishing for the easel thingy.......after that go to Lot 1 to buy something to eat lo cause abit hungry alreadi..........then we brought our food to the park somewhere near limbang park aiya i dun know wat park or garden was it i juz know its near limbang park lo............then go there eat our food............finished our food then play i and Han Sheng folded a swan each and buried it together under a pile of sand wonder will it disspear when we try to collect it back at an unknown date...............hahaZ then after that play and so called childish game to your but not me..........cause its a video game translated game it is simply to juz catch the paper plane..........even though they also find it childish but they also enjoyed playing it........... HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! then after that went home and start playing com immediately !!! then play and chat all the way till 11pm then i went to sleepcause tomolo still have school.............so SianZ anyway nvm can go school and see your two i also dun mind going to school everyday lo :p HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! NO CRYING FOR ME TODAY !!! HOW GREAT IF EVERYDAY IS LIKE THAT..............WILL IT BE LIKE THAT 4EVER ???
another day in memorial of crying again............hAiZ :"( Today stayed back in school and play lo.........play all those games that to people would be childish games but to us they are not cause it makes us feel lke a turn back in time when we are still young............so obvoiusly never go swimming lo......then after that went to Han Sheng house to "play" with my msn account..........then today things that were more mushy came out...cant stand the three pros...........theni like extra........ HAHA...yAY...YiPPiE !!! then after that at about 5.30pm i went home then at night was shocked cause "YOU" talk to me all of a sudden.........shocked me but was at least happier..........i hope i can forget my so called friends that backstabbed me...........and i dun want to know anyone else anymore in my life le........this six people is all i need.........thanx Y_Y !!! i hope i dun get backstabbed again...............hAiZ :"( crying while i was doing my hw so its kind of wet now...........hAiZ :"(
hAiZ........homework coming again........and this time i will try to finish every single one and pass them up on time not like last semester always hand in homework late.........but now i have to settle my holiday homework first...........nothing happened much today onli that DnT delayed till afternoon at 5+ then straight away go home........bath eat dinner then go do homework.............at 10pm then i switch on com to chat cause do homework do until sianz............after that went to bed and sleep............another day in memorial of me crying again...........hAiZ :"(
i am not going to write wat happened yesterday, its juz terrible and the onli good thing that happened yesterday was i won another three medals a full collection meaning a bronze, silver and gold............Hmm mabye its a bad thing.........i dun know............hAiZ :"( i am all lost now and i dun know how to move on i am juz stuck there not moving.............
Today is the start of school after one month of suffering and boredom for me its finally over and it seems that i am even carrying the suffering in................i am lost wat should i do ??? i dun know..........i am juz a useless person stuck in a spot not wanting to move forward cause i am lost and right now i also dun know wat i am writing about.............anyway i juz know one thing now..........i am lost............hAiZ :"( changed my seat today...........the place ok cause i can be quiet and all alone there...............yAy good...........after school went to Han Sheng house then found out that alvin is actually so talented in doing "something" i am totally shocked !!! and i actually laughed lo !!! cause really dam funny the way alvin do the "something"..............!!! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! then after that go alvin house then i was like doing nothing there.............then after that 5.30pm i went home.............then go do my homework..........hAiZ........so siAnZ :"( then after that go sleep..............HOPE I CAN FORGET WAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY........................hAiZ :"(
TOMOLO GOING FOR COMPETITION AGAIN...........HOPE I WIN MEDALS AGAIN.............AND BEST HOPE IF I WIN I DUN GET INJURED !!! AND DUN GET BACKSTABBED BY MY FRIEND AGAIN...............hAIz that was wat hapened last SUNDAY !!! hAIz.....................!!! :"( today play and watch movies never do holiday hw i sure die liao tomolo whole day i must do lo if not will die terribly................juz hope i dun walk home after the competition with another leg bleeding can le.............hAiZ !!! :"( today continouously watch three movies so now abit tired and it looks like i am not really intrested in playing games anymore..........good, now i can concentrate on my studies !!!!!! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! :"(
I DREAM EVERY NIGHT EVERY NIGHT ITS THE SAME DREAM...............AND ITS ALWAYS THE SAME YOU IN MY DREAMS.......................hAiZ :"( yAy its all going to end soon...............all the boredom...............i am going to try to be quiet for the next half of the year so if i can dun talk...........I WONT !!! so today play and play and play again the stupid same game then tomolo then i do hw.............math i sure cannot finish one..........i am prepared to die.............hAiZ !!! :"(
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hAIZ................. :"( now i am onli left with like 6 people i can rely to cause they still treat me as a friend..............................others onli make me suffer..............i think for me being alone would be better at least i wont suffer as much as i am now..............................hAiZ but i must now treasure the 6 people that still treats me as a friend...............hope they can change my thinking.............of me having this six people as my friend better than being all alone better.........can they ??? nvm........ i cant predict.............cause all these unpredictable things have been happening and i have been suffering both physical and internal..............this whole holiday......... friends backstabbing me and saying bad about me and mnay other things happened........hAiZ :"(
Today woke up switch on com. play all the way till 6pm then off com then first time touch on holiday homework.........so sianz still got alot never do.........finish e-maths liao still...........i can finish one but during the holidays i didnt do is cause i dun want to do cause holiday ma i play........but thinking back i didnt play much...........i was busy suffering..............hAiZ.......then at night 10 plus i switch on com tried to be busy by chatting to people but most of them all no reply...........hAIZ !!! i guess my friend is correct i am IRRITAITING !!! so no one wants to chat with me cause i will irritait them...............hAiZ :"( although i got play games it still boring cause i play the game so many times liao............................this is the worst holiday i have.............all the suffering and boredom.............hAiZ :"( [ DRAWN THIS OUT OF BOREDOM............]
Today totally nothing to write about........................juz morning go school come back the play and play and play...............sIaNz...............that about all i can say lo...............although i play everyday its still boring cause everyday the same game................hAiZ !!! :"(
Tuesday...............another boring day.........almost whole day at home do nothing again lo cause went to school............then actually planned to do holiday hw but then dun know why i never do...........HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! then almost whole day stay at home rot..........leg still painful and its getting from bad to worst...........OMG wat am i going to do.........hAiZ nothing much happened today.............hAiZ !!! :"(
Today boring day again............morning wake up switch on com play and play till 3pm then i thought that today i got to go for swimming.................but then my leg still damn pain.............so didnt stop playing continued.............HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! then onli till 6pm + then i off the com. and went to rest my eyes..................after that took a bath then went to have dinner..............then i go ly down on the bed reflecting myself................and i thought of alot of things.....................ALOT !!! so cannot write cause will fill the whole web page lo !!! HAHA.....yAy......YiPPiE !!!then at 9pm switch on com. and start playing and playing again................. onli till 12.30 am then i went to sleep...........see how "exciting" my holidays can be................. :"(
Today got two medals but then i won my friend............then he not happy make me fall then slide on the floor cause the floor is dam wet then got one sharp sharp thing then cut me now still bleeding.........my hands all that also got wounds now............no one cares :"( even my parents..........they say die die lo we also dun care..............thats all i can write today its really painful...................why must this happen..........why people always bully me and i feel like giving up my life...........!!! :"(
SO LONG SINCE I EVER UPLOADED A PICTURE................
never go anywhere today.............dun know why father lock me at home...........so juz sit inside room stare at room ceiling cause i lying down on bed....................nothing happen...........never lunch and dinner !!! so very obviou nothing to write lo................... :"( yea cry when inside the room...........
nvm i know no one cares lo.............why ??? nvm i will never know today whole day listen one same song..............its very closely linked to my life these few days lo.................the song also quite nice...................................today wake up....................................( to be continued ) NO ONE CARES EVEN IF I DUN CONTINUE..................................... :"(
anyway continuing........... so now everyday is so sianz if stay at home i will on com. then stare at screen.............then do nothing else unless someone asks me to............ then if i go out is also go out alone........so my holidays are always like that no intresting activities...........as i said.......today go school for robotics........again go alone so boring.........then come back then go swimming then all alone again.............come back on com. stare at screen lo...............and that wat i did today............. :"(
THESE TWO DAYS PURPOSELY DIDNT WRITE CAUSE WANT MAKE MYSELF BUSY TOMOLO WHEN I USE COM. STUPID RIGHT....................BUT NO OTHER WAY I CAN BE BUSY.............hAIZ..............I WANT TO BE BUSY LIKE ALL OF YOUR !!! :"(
Yesterday i method worked lo i really sing till i sleep !!!HAHA.....yAy......YiPPiE !!! after i woke up at 7am prepared somethings then went to school for the robotics thingy...............time flew during the thingy, i guess i enjoyed it lo..........after that dun want go home cause want make myself busy...........so went to keith house play PS2 play till 6 then i go home............i crazy liao.....................still bored when in his house cause alot people also go there so didnt get to play much lo................so was quite bored there lo.........come back now stare at com. screen as usual lo..............I AM BORED !!! :"( hAiZ............
...............hAiZ !!! i am so bored........i want to busy like your !!! :"(............ sian today wednesday 14/6/06 i forgot i got robotics course.............then wake up dam late at 10 plus.........then Mr Tay call and remind me then i remembered, then he say nvm tomolo must go cause cannot too many lessons..........HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! after the call i switch on my com play till 3 plus then ent to get tortured again ( swimming training ) then after go home switch on com do nothing again sit there stare...................boring !!! today night going to sing myself till i sleep !!! ??? HAHA...yAy...YiPPiE !!! cause you ask me to but i cant so try this "weird method" lo !!! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!!
i hate holidays !!! lots of people like them..........i juz dun........... today morning wake up 8am then play till 9.30pm go Jun ming house cause trying to make myself enjoy this hateful holiday...........so brought my PS2 there play all the way till 6pm then i went home..........boring lo play and play !!! HAHA......yAy......YiPPiE !!!wnet home ate dinner online boring no one chatting with me much so was like staring at the com. again today...........BORING !!! after that slept at 11.30pm..............STILL A BORING DAY TODAY I WANT TO BUSY ALL DAY.........EVEN WHEN I USING COM.
Even though its the holidays.........everyone is so busy.......execpt me rotting at home every single day..........hAiZ !!! I want to be busy also...... :"( And today at least i was occupied....first wake up then went to school for A-maths remedial.........two hours sit there i was juz copying blindly although some i understand............after that went "son" house play starcraft...........fun actually !!! NOW ADDICTED TO THE GAME LE............SAVING UP TO BUY IT !!! HAHA...yAy...YiPPiE !!! after that they all go watch movie............felt so useless couldnt go into the cinema with them cause they watching horror movie and i dun dare watch.........i am useless.......... !!! :"( hAiZ always went they watch a horror movie i feel useless cause i want to join them watch same movie............but problem is i dun dare !!! Guess i will always be useless lo............hAiZ !! :"( then after they go into the cinema.........said Byello then went home and prepared to go for my swimming............ as usual got tortured again came home didnt walk much cause tired so juz sit in front of com. chat with Jun Ming and Keith cause all the others all busy.......... I MISS CHATTING WITH YOU LO...........hAiZ but you busy..........nvm lo !! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! Then after i wrote this post went to bed cause tomolo must wake up early do "something" HAHA.....yAy......YiPPiE !!! ( REGAINED MY HAPPINESS.........WILL BE USING HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! AGAIN ) HAHA.....yAy.........YiPPiE !!! NOT SO BAD TODAY ALMOST HALF DAY BUSY !!! yAy............
nothing much to write today.................boring day today morning sleep till 11am wake up sit in front of tv day dream..........afternoon parents want go out ask me follow..................bought nothing as usual........but carried lots of things home which my parents brought everytime they go out shopping..........come home eat dinner le father went out to play golf wanted to go........but sian always when i play lousier than him he will say i useless !!! so didnt go lo..............stayed at home stare at com. again............do nothing................hAiZ...........tomolo still have to go school !!! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! want to be busy tomolo...........hope i can make it happen..........mabye cannot lo :"(
Today morning never wake up cause never even sleep lo..........now very tired................hAiZ then today morning i play until evening..........i xiao le ma.............then at night knew that you have forgiven me i was happy............then at night shocking news..........subaa admit........................... : "·$#FF8040jethar™ ; - freak - o + jell - o says:
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and lastly i have to say ............ SORRY SUBAA............. :"( JUZ WANTED TO STOP CRYING A HAVE A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP SO HAD SOME FUN ( NOT FUN FOR YOU I KNOW ) TO MAKE ALL THIS TRUE HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND ( I KNOW YOU WONT UNDERSTAND )............SORRY !!! COME BITE MY EAR OFF IF THAT WILL SATISFY YOUR ANGER...............NO ONE WILL CARE IF I HAVE ONE LESS EAR SO BITE IT OFF IF IF YOU WILL BE HAPPY AFTER ACCOMPLISHING THAT...................
HAHA......yAy.......YiPPiE !!! PLZ FORGIVE ME................................. nothing happened today juz CRYING all day like the previous days then afternoon go swimming come back online msn again sit ther Cry lo then at night sleep lo...........boring day..............
He is dead, he will be back.........but forgetting every single he knows before he was dead ( NOT WANTING THIS TO HAPPEN !!! ) ..........not going to cry anymore ( LIKE TODAY WHOLE DAY SEE HIM CRYING ).......................and most importantly he dun want all this to happen...........he dun know why too...............nvm now that he is dead ...........today nothing happened much for him he juz stayed home most of the day CRYING..........afternoon he was doing something...........( ALSO CRYING WHILE DOING SOMETHING ) Then at night online msn, same as the two previous days nothing happened........ he juz sat there still CRYING.............i guess he is not going to sleep tonight.........i guess he will be crying all the way till morning....................( want to revive the previous Rdragon ??? Give a comment or through msn..........) NO ONE WILL WANT TO..........JUZ WRITING FOR "FUN" ............
Today didnt go to school for my A-maths remmedial cause must bring my relatives who always say i stupid and useless around Singapore..........even if i go for the remmedial thing everyone will treat me as i am invisible so i go or dont go also the same lo.......hAiZ then from morning 10.30am go out till 3 plus then came back, then they again went to sleep.............so i also again go that same sofa rot there till they wake up then at night online like yesterday never do anithing juz waiting for the time to pass............again today i cried.........
Crying is cause i miss you and so many things happening...........hAiZ i want to run away from all this...........and i cant !!! Have been crying all day i want to stop...... today got scolded by my mother juz because i was looking unhappy.............wat else can i do !!!! its not that i want want myself to be so sad.......is.......nvm dun one to recall it anymore..... tomolo cant go for the A-maths cause must entertain my relatives who always say i stupid and useless...........then i still must entertain them..............then at night online msn, never do anithing juz sit there waiting for the time to pass and finally at 12 plus got tired so went to sleep.........SORRY !!! :'(
Onli one day after i stop crying and was like more happy...........start to cry again today !!! :'( Today alot of my relative came visit from malaysia.......... didnt served them well........useless. They say want to go out so go out lo........whole trip i kept quiet all the way till i reached home, then after that they all go sleep in the afternoon i was sitting there in the corner CRYING.......until now i am still crying !!! people say i am stupid and useless and they want me to dissapear from their sight.........
Finally its over, i got myself over with it and now i can laugh as normal.........yAy ( bad news for lots of people out there ) Today intended to play all day but my parents say they going out ask me follow to help them carry things.......... so didnt play whole day !!! HAHA...yAy.....YiPPiE !!! Then at night came home online many people see my name so happy then they kept on disturbing me............but i still happy !!! HAHA.....yAy.......YiPPiE !!! Then at night sleep at 12plus.........
Today woke up then was quite happy cause i got back some of my voice so can at least talk abit lo then all the way until 5pm it was either sitting at the sofa rotting or doing the something i started doing yesterday so not much to write about today........ then at night online chat with you then go sleep.......boring days ahead !!! HAHA.....yAy.......YiPPiE !!! I HATE HOLIDAYS !!!
OMG !!! I cant even utter a single word......... so i didnt talk during the english remmedial then Ms Ong say i very quiet and look lonely perhaps i really am in that state now..........hAiZ then she ask me to sit with someone but i intended to say no need, i am fine sitting alone !!! but then i got no voice to say anithing.......... then when i didnt say anithing she asked me who i did liked to sit with.........but then even if i have my voice back at that instant i also wouldnt say anithing.......... then after that went home play com. until 3pm then went for my torturing lesson again..........sianz then at 8.30pm i reach home after finishing my torturing class..........then did abit of the "thing" i started today then at 9.30pm play com till 12am then i went to sleep......... today whole day didnt talk to anyone onli use online chat and SMS..........can die without talking lo........... miss talking to you especially........... and by the way i am much more happier than yesterday !!! HAHA......yAy.......YiPPiE !!! hope i can soon be as happy as i was before............will that day ever come ??? hope tomolo wake up with my voice back...........or mabye it wont... anyway i am happier then yesterday thats the truth...... !!! HAHA.....yAy.....YiPPiE !!! SMILING AFTER SOoooo MANY DAYS OF CRYING, I AM FEELING BETTER and mabye at people say is true "laughter is the best medicine" and you !!! are the onli one who made me laugh during this few miserable days of my life....THANX nUe Er !!! HAHA.....yAy......YiPPiE !!!
Today, although i was still quite sick i had to wake up at 7pm to prepare to go school cause my mother forced me to, saying that my sickness is not as serious so i was dragging my feet to school all the way................no strenght to even lift up my feet to walk properly....... then after that went home then start to think of recent things happening and making me sad and wanted to cry..........after that when i felt better went to JUN MING house AGAIN to play PS2 which i brought there then at about 5.55pm i went home then ate dinner then as usual switch on com. to chat with you cause no will else will............then 11.30pm then went to sleep...........so late wonder wat time i am going to wake up tomolo.......
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